In those first moments of life

I was the centre of everyone’s affection

I was innocent and dependant

I saw the world for the first time

As I grew

The earth became a little less pleasant

Until the day I couldn’t open my eyes

I walked for years

With my head to the ground

My eyes shut tight

I never knew where I’d been

Nor where I was going

Each step I took

Was one god gave me

Until the day he said

When you reach the edge

Don’t stop walking

There’s no purpose in the world for you

And as I began to fall

I opened my eyes

And I saw the world for the last time

I never took the world for granted

I did not tread among the thorns

I only ever sought what my heart desired

I took the bull by the horns

I lived and breathed for only a thousand words

I could see everything from earth to mars

Watching the universe was the simplest pleasure

I was careful not to stare away the stars

I never took the world for granted

I only ever walked my own corridor

I wanted to find love of a pure kind

And that’s what I’ll always be living for

I only ever cried where no one could see

I did not wish sadness upon a world so true

I thought I had found love of a pure kind

I just wish it could have been with you

LONGING

In the darkness

I lingered

I wept

For your love

But never even a hand touched my shoulder

Behind

A mask

I hid

Waiting

For god to make me beautiful

So

I could

Be released

And no longer crave the feeling of your eyes upon me.